Indonesian Time zone
No meant for that. I'm happy to write here again. I have been busy on doing some messy stuffs for my life. Although it were not all necessary. You must be curious and really want to ask question why I am being introvert for a while?
Well.. These nowadays I am still struggle to look for some activities that raised money. Because I am being more realistic that I couldn't live with (out) money. Hey, clearly my Dad and Mom have always been grumpy to me when they just saw me were not doing anything at home. Like a lazy person in a cage. Don't mean cossette .. hehe (my bird is tweeting right now when I am mentioning her).
I had read so many books just to gain some knowledge of motivation to our selves. Do you know? The book told me to do something to maybe mingling, to be success, to raise money. I have to admit that the books sometimes were right. Books of motivation told me to be an independent woman. If we can employee ourselves why couldn't we employee other people. That's what books told me (more or less).
Independent woman doesn't mean that we ruled some abilities that we couldn't do. It's also meant we actually could pay ourselves.That's the point. My parents always told me about this. Because all women in our family have to work. And that rules also ruined in my blood. I meant besides my laziness and all problems would not be limitation to people to work.
For me, everything is now needing so many efforts. Firstly, I have to work, Second, I should have a boyfriend, Third, If it is possible, I'll get my self on master degree. Fourth, If it is possible, I'll also buy home and car. Fifth, If it is possible also, I get my self married and having kids. Sixth, If it is possible beyond all possible I would have a business. Seventh, I would traveling around the world.
But... If it are only imagination, I would graving my self on sorrows.
Huh.. all things that I wanted in this life need effort. all things that I wanted been doing on my first step right now. But I realized after I graduated the truly adventures had just begun.
My problems were not only one. It were involved with my communication to other people, how motivation worked on me, on how I handled my all projects, on how I finish one by one my deadline, on how I managed my social activity, on how I hold my self to keep on fighting.
It were all problems that I should finish one by one. Including number eight the things I need, that was I recovered and healed from S _H_Z_P_R_N_A (how does it sound clearly to me right now ? )
Hmmmm.. you are right we couldn't stop the time. I am only slowly walk on the time and doing my step.. Good luck to me!